stuck again
Mood:  lazy

i'm losing my touch.  im eating like a cow, puking, gaining.........uggh!

i still cant believe how incredibly depressed i get when i eat like a "normal" human being.  eating makes me feel bad about myself. 

i have to kick my a** into gear and start losing again.  when i came back from NY, i was 8 lbs. down from when i left.  now, i gained it ALL back plus a little more.  crap crap crap crap crap.....

maybe i have to start reporting my food intake on here.......that'll make me think twice, lol.

 im having problems controlling my binges.  they were gone for a while, but they're back...... usually the stress of school helps with the whole "not eating" thing, but i haven't gone since june.  im starting back up in three days, and i hope it has the effect on me that i'm expecting. (and yes, im quite aware of the fact that everything im saying is f***ed up and crazy)