Fuel To The Fire
Mood:  down
Now Playing: nothing (hey, sometimes a girl needs some peace)

well......

i feel like s**t.  i had my first day of classes today.  i forgot how much this stuff stressed me.  i'm already missing a class with a paper due on it because of a doctor's appt.  (LOOONG story, i've been sick for too long, nothing ED related to my knowledge). 

i was on the way home from English today, and I just started crying.  I realized how my drug use effects my ability in school, and I feel so stupid.  I have (or had) a 141 IQ and all of the sudden (several years ago) I drop out of high school.  I'm in college now and I can't do what I used to.  I'm not an A student anymore (I got 2 As and a B last semester, but I have no idea how it happened, in NY it would have been 2 Bs and a C)

I'm rambling, it's what I do. 

Oh, fuel to the fire.  Because I'm slightly tipsy, and.....yeah, the wine. 

 

PEACE