out of control, as usual
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: System Of A Down, what else
i cant figure out if im EDNOS or bulimic. just saying.........no reason.

ive been purging, like, 3 times EVERY DAY. this is the worst its ever been, ive never done it for this long like this before..... i feel like im just waiting for a heart attack.

once already today, fast food was suddenly sprung upon me. and i got out of the house to get away from the food.......

its not like alcohol or drugs, an addiction that you could avoid more. its like giving an alcoholic a jug of whiskey and expecting him to only have a shot or two.

youre supposed to eat, but not to little and not too much, just the right amount. and when youre addicted you seem to do either or both......