regrets
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: nothing
i had food. all 600 calories and got knows how many grams of fat. 20? 25? ugh.

well, that didnt stay long.

i knew id blow it. of coarse. lets hope the shame keeps me from eating more.
it usually will.

i feel.....like sh**.......
Now Playing: Norah Jones
as i said. im exhausted, probably from lack of food. which in a sick way makes me feel good.

proud even.

i wish i didnt wanna binge......ever. it makes me feel like such a whore. a big fat one.

binging sucks ass. dammit. i really want to.

anyway, nothing but wine and a peppermint today. i only woke up an hour or so ago. ive been sleeping so damn much. i think im sick, like, physically sick. a cold or something. yay phlegm!

:::sigh::: goodnight ....zzzzzz........

damn me
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: nothing
so.....we just HAD to go out to eat. i had a panic attack right in the middle of it all and starting crying at the table. french fries, REALLY fried. i lost it.

of coarse, as soon as i got home i tossed it, oil completely freaks me out. i was doing really well, too. waking up late always helps.

ugh. webrings. cant get em to work!!!

The Broken Bits Network
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: System Of A Down Baby!!!! AUGUST!!!
well, im back.....muah ha ha

i think i know why i got booted last time. i threatened someone......political, lets say. sorry. im REAL sorry i got kicked off. it totally bummed me out. makes me so angry, i had the site going so good, too. now i gotta start ALL OVER AGAIN. damn.

anyhoo, today i had coffee and wine. thats all. lucky me, i woke up at 4 o'clock and missed the whole day's hunger pains, yay me!

sick, aint it?

guess thats all for now. i gotta work on the BBN site. (grumbles....)